We had another visit to the fertility specialist. I was 10 weeks, 1 day. I had been having a few tummy tightenings and was feeling sick as a dog, so my anxiety was less than the previous few weeks. I hopped up onto the chair and waited to see if something was still growing inside.
It sure was.
There was a little foetus. Looking slightly human even. It was hanging out on its belly (very jealous - I love lying on my belly but can't anymore) and measuring 3.5cm - spot on for 10 weeks. It's heart beat was fantastic - nice and strong.
Ah the sweet relief.
Our second bub didn't make it. Its sack was being all squished by the first bub. The FS said it would eventually be squished into non existence.
Now some organising begins. I have to have a range of blood tests next week, followed by a nuchal translucency scan the week after. I also have to book into an obstetrician, and into the hospital. Wow, this is starting to feel real. I'm starting to get excited. But I'm not quite ready to totally let go yet.
It sure was.
There was a little foetus. Looking slightly human even. It was hanging out on its belly (very jealous - I love lying on my belly but can't anymore) and measuring 3.5cm - spot on for 10 weeks. It's heart beat was fantastic - nice and strong.
Ah the sweet relief.
Our second bub didn't make it. Its sack was being all squished by the first bub. The FS said it would eventually be squished into non existence.
Now some organising begins. I have to have a range of blood tests next week, followed by a nuchal translucency scan the week after. I also have to book into an obstetrician, and into the hospital. Wow, this is starting to feel real. I'm starting to get excited. But I'm not quite ready to totally let go yet.
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ReplyDeleteI am going anon here because I have something to say now everyone has the right to their opinion but i wanted to get your opinion on this apologies i don't know your specific story or details BUT firstly i want to congratulate you on your pregnancy it is just wonderful news and i really hope you get a healthy baby at the end of it everyone deserves that. I am amazed and astounded at the number of woman these days that need to go and see fertility specialists it just seems so common now I'm just wondering since you have been through it what is your opinion on why this is? Do you think back in the day a lot of women just didn't have babies??
Hi to the anon user above... I've often wondered this myself. I think there are a few reasons why, and probably more than I have thought of.
ReplyDelete1. more people talk about difficulties and getting help these days so you hear about it more
2. Yes I agree with you that more women are probably having babies - meaning that there probably were a lot more women 50 years ago who didn't have the options of assistance we had so had no babies or adopted or fostered.
3. The average age of a first time mum is way higher now, and your fertility naturally decreases as you get older.
That's my thoughts anyway! Thanks for your kind thoughts.